To Internet date or to Not

Ok, first of all I have to say is unfortunately this is something
I have dabbled in off and on for years. I thought I found a
person that was right for me but things didn't work out.
So back to the world of Internet dating since it's really the
only place to meet people anymore. Living in the cities
everyone just goes about their way as if they have everything
in place and you, are just another person passing them by. No
one opens up and tries to talk or communicate other than a
quick glance....what is that? and why? I understand everyone
has insecurities....me included! I have always been a friendly
person and open to talking and forming all kinds of new relationships.
I never really know if I am not good looking enough to talk to,
do I have something in my teeth, bad breath, too short, too dark
of hair, not good enough body oh my gosh the list can go on and
on. I have had this problem since I was very young. All my friends
had boyfriends all through high school. I didn't of course but I
just figured well, this is just high school who cares...but unfortunately
it went beyond that. I have only had one person pursue me...One.
I almost married him.......everyone else after that I had to pursue.
Even when you do get comfortable with the pursuit thing...sometimes
(most times) it backfires. So where do we go from here? It is so
sad, that there are that many people just saying oh well, I guess I will
just exist....I have a friend who pretty much loves his life being
single. He likes having his men friends and his "girl.....friends". Notice
the separation there. Yeah, they are girls and they are friends. It's
amazing to see how satisfied he is. He is really his own free spirit
and truly likes it that way. More power to him...but for the rest of
us who want to share a life....well, it's gets pretty hard.
Internet dating is whole world that can be so exciting but confusing
all in the same membership time. I connected with a couple of
guys at one point and thought wow, this is it...but after communicating
a couple of times all the while saying how we "should" get together
they disappear as quickly as they appear....what is that????
My niece told me something the other day that was so profound. Her
grandmother, a very funny lady and well known for her books written
with quick humor had said the following. Men are like parking spots.
All the good ones are taken. The only thing left are the handicapped
ones. I laughed but pretty much said the could actually be so true!
I don't have the answer other than it's lke anything else worth the
pain....you have to suffer through it until it works. I have seen so
many profiles of these guys are who are well into their late 30's up
to like mid 40's. They actually say they want kids? Excuse me well
then you just pretty much are looking for the 20 something that
still wants kids, but your age difference will get ya in the end...
No not always, but as time goes on and he ages faster than her
and she is still young...hmmm well I will just let your mind chew on
that one. If you have waited that long to have kids? What have
you been doing all this time...quality person, who knows...everyone
has their reasons, good bad or indifferent. Don't get me wrong I am not
trying to criticize what other people do or how they feel I am just
trying to make sense of it. Where are the cool 40 something who
haven't already bought into the well, now I have another ache or
pain, I must be old now. Immaturity and young at heart are two
different thing in my opinion. So....where are the young at heart?
Gimme your thoughts! Ciao